Sometimes, everything is chaos.
That’s the way it’s been for weeks now. Since Mercury started retrograding, but even a bit before that.
I travelled to Scotland, spent a night watching old pagan rights reenacted for modern times with big bonfires, drove winding roads that hugged lochs, camped in the cold rain. I went where the world pushed me. And when I returned, too much waited for me: work projects and to-do lists, long hours that passed too quickly with a heavy heart.
I could tell something was off with my cat Marty when I arrived home, and in the past few weeks, he’s gotten weaker and skinnier. I’ve cancelled plans to care for him, because when all is said and done, I can’t imagine a better way to spend my time than loving him. And right now, he’s holding on still, but some days, I’m overwhelmed. My heart is just breaking.
When so much is uncertain, you have no choice but to live in the moment. That’s where I’ve been.
But with Mercury spinning backwards across the sky, I’ve found myself in another place, one where I’m haunted by the past and the future. I feel the weight of where I’m going. It’s as if all the past threads and current threads of my life are finally converging to show me the bigger picture, except it still isn’t clear. But there are changes that need to be made — changes in my business, changes in this blog, changes in how I live my life.
There are more questions than answers, but we have to start somewhere, don’t we?
4 thoughts on “Mercury Retrograde”
I’ve totally felt that way about life lately too: chaos everywhere. There’s too much happening too fast.
I hope Marty gets better soon. And don’t worry so much about your business. Everything will work out :)
I hope your cat gets better soon! Sending well wishes. I’m also feeling the mercury around these parts too :/
I’m sorry about Marty. I wish I could hug you.
Speaking of hugging you, I’m off for the month. I can visit. I NEED to visit.
This made me sad… Sending you peaceful thoughts and hoping that Marty is getting stronger. On a positive note, Mercury retrograde is almost over.
Saturn is retrograding as well, probably why you feel so heavy. It will pass, keep thinking forward. :)