No. 48


This is what I call my state of inner turmoil: thrashing. It’s like an autumn rainstorm. Thick. Heavy. Strong.

Things have not been right for some time now. Actually, things have been more right now than ever before. And that is the contradiction I’ve been living.

I’ve been immersed both the rainstorm and the rainbow. And while being tossled and tossed by the wild winds has been difficult, I’ve been finding the beauty in the flashes of lightning and rolls of thunder…and in the rainbows left behind.

I’ve been trying to learn how to align what is true to who I am with what is true about my world. In the past six months, I’ve discovered so much about myself: what drives me, what my purpose is, why I behave in certain ways, how I protect myself, what I want from the relationships in my life. Nearly every day brings a new revelation, new inspiration. There are changes coming — I think you’ve suspected that, yes? But now, I want to be open with you and tell you that they are. I’m making space in my life. I’m taking everything that I do to a new level, from work to life to blogging. While I was hoping that I could continue posting regularly in the meantime, it’s too much for me to keep up. So I’m allowing myself this space and time, a quiet in the storm, and when I’m back, you’ll see how the light shines too.

About brandi

Brandi is a digital strategist, website developer, and founder of Alchemy+Aim, a company that helps entrepreneurs and business owners elevate their online presence and enhance their digital experience. Her academic background in theatre, philosophy and physics was the perfect foundation for launching her business, where she’s worked with Brené Brown, Laverne Cox, Judy Smith, and other notable thought leaders since 2013. She is an advocate for using technology in ways that humanize, connect and serve people as well as for asking deeper philosophical questions and teaching others to think more broadly about impact when they create, particularly in STEAM fields.

21 thoughts on “Thrashing

  1. Although I do miss you, I completely understand this driving need to get more out of life. A life like yours needs to feed it. Go forth, my friend! You have already done so much greatness, I can’t wait to see more.

  2. This is definitely huge. I can feel it happening to a lot of people, myself included. It does feel something like a storm brewing.
    I think it’s so awesome that you’ve been taking the time to figure things out. It seems most people never do that in their lifetimes. I hope everything is finding its balance and I’m excited to hear what’s been going on with you!

  3. Brandi, I will miss you and your wonderful words. I hope that your time is fruitful and that the new growth will be verdant.

  4. You’re an amazing woman, Brandi. I feel lucky to call you my friend. I’ll miss your blogging presence while you’re sorting things out, but hopefully we can skype very soon.
    Sending you hugs,
    E xoxo

  5. Hi lovely,
    I love this post and I am so happy for you. Even with our emails, I have been seeing the shift as you create this beautiful authentic vision for your life. You are a superstar and I have absolutely no doubt you can create all that you imagine (and some!). I can’t wait to see it all come to fruition for you. Xoxo

  6. Hope things brighten up soon! I do love your words and you can make even uncertainty sound so beautiful. Take your time; we’ll be here when you return. If anything, I could probably use the same myself.

  7. This was such a wonderful post, Brandi. I love your writing and all the adventures you’re taking, and those questions you’ve written about here? They’re on my mind too.

    Here’s to hoping you find the answers.


  8. Oh my gosh this is exactly what I’m going through. I think my life became too…planned?? I had my blog planned out, my weeks planned out, outfits, lunches. Everything. Then in one fell swoop, it all came crashing down. Now I can’t get my brain to settle on one thing to save my LIFE. I sit down to write a post and nothing organized comes out. Nothing. I dont know what it is but I’m going to let it run its course and see what happens after. I think I need some time to decompress.

  9. I completely understand the need for a break. I’ve been feeling off for a while too – almost like i have lost my identity. (having little ryker 6 months ago might have something to do with that…) I hope you are doing well. Xoxo

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